Dalam kesaksiannya dia mengatakan bahwa dia berusaha keras meraih sukses dalam karirnya tetapi hatinya merasa hampa. Semakin keras usahanya tetapi justru kekosongan hati dan ketakutannya makin bertambah. Dalam masa kehampaan dan ketakutan inilah dia menemukan jawaban : hanya Kristus yang bisa mengisi kekosongan hatinya dan sanggup melenyapkan ketakutannya. Terlebih lagi Sammi menemukan tujuan hidupnya kini di dalam Kristus. :) Berikut petikan kesaksiannya yang diterjemahkan ke dalam bahasa Inggris:
I am Sammi Cheng, a singer and actress. I am 35 this year and I guess I have attained a certain level of success. However, I’ve lived a life of pretense and was so used to living life according to the value people tag onto me. I thought the more successful I was, the more worth I would have in the eyes of others. I thought the more successful I got, the more reason I would have to life. But when I attained the material things that most people long for, I came to realize that I was truly at the end of myself- I realize I had nothing. My heart was empty. I thus tried to pursue success even harder to make up for this, but the emptiness and fear only got larger.
So, I decided to take a break from this vicious cycle of want. I let go of a career I took a decade to build up. I gave up my success. I wanted to have a good look at what was left in my life.
The LORD used about a period of about a 1000 days to let me thoroughly reflect on my past and I came to see very clearly the truth behind my success and material wealth- that although these could build me a life, they could not give me the true life that would satisfy me.
Life has a greater worth and in the words of the LORD, I found my direction and my firm foundation.
“The Son of Man came to serve, not to be served.”
For my journey in the days ahead, I have a clear direction. I do not know how the LORD has written the script that is my life, but I know that He will lead me one step at a time.
This inner shalom is a shalom that no amount of money can purchase.
Reflecting on that 1000 day period, the LORD has truly broken my old life and fixed me anew. He has given me this release to let me find my heart again. And I realize my heart has already been bonded to Him before I realized and that I no longer have to fear, I no longer have to be in despair. I want to live life as the unique creation that I am.
I want to life to give glory to that which is greater than my life. I no longer want to conform to this world. This is my promise to the LORD.
- Sammi Cheng (http://hungribunni.tumblr.com)